You may have noticed that the countdown calendar is not on my blog page any more. That’s because I just heard from my publisher that the date of publication has been moved back to March 2013. That is very discouraging! FYI:
- Feb 2011 – finished Twelve Smooth Stones
- Mar 2011 – submitted the book proposal to Christian Manuscript Submissions.com
- Jun 2011 – contacted by Kirkdale press
- Oct 2011 – signed a contract with them
- Mar 2012 – received the August publication date
Discouragement 101! Hope has truly been deferred, and I apologize to you dear folks who seemed just as excited about the book’s publication as I was!
So what were my reactions:
- Unbelief – How could this be?
- Anger – How can they do this to me?
- Discouragement – Why am I even doing this?
- Doubt – Who do I think I am anyway – I’m not an author!
- Blame – Why did you do this, Lord?
- Refocus –
Why did God do this? Do I know? No. Do I need to know? No. I just need to take this opportunity to build my trust in Him. He is my heavenly Father. He GAVE me the book, so what He chooses to do with it is His prerogative, not mine. Can you imagine a servant to the king, or an aid to the president telling him what to do?! I get a better understanding of Nehemiah’s situation when he stood before the king, not hiding his discouragement. His sad countenance caught the king’s attention and the Lord used it for good; but how quickly we jump over the phrase: “…Then I was very sore afraid,” (Nehemiah 2:2)
So what do I do? Do I write a scathing letter to the publisher? I may ask some questions, but the way I approach them must be in line with my faith in God. His character must be seen in me, no matter the circumstances!
“…but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life” This phrase is mentioned eleven times in the Bible: three times in Genesis, four times in Proverbs and Revelation. It makes a fascinating study; however, I’ll just share Matthew Henry’s comments:
Nothing is more grateful than to enjoy that, at last, which we have long wished and waited for: When the desire does come it puts men into a sort of paradise, a garden of pleasure, for it is a tree of life. It will aggravate the eternal misery of the wicked that their hopes will be frustrated; and it will make the happiness of heaven the more welcome to the saints that it is what they have earnestly longed for as the crown of their hopes.
This has been a great lesson for me in trusting God. I hope it is a help to you as well.