Hope deferred maketh the heart sick:
but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life
Hope deferred: late, delayed, postponed, tardy, overdue.
What do we do when our hope is delayed, postponed, or overdue?
My last post was written with joy and anticipation because my newest grandson was on his way to Grandpa and Grandma’s house for the first time. Oh, the desire came, and if that’s the tree of life—well then, the tree of life is a really wonderful thing!
However, the reason for the visit was so that our son could audition at Penn State University for their Piano Performance Doctoral program. However, a week before that, he received an email stating that there had been an oversight on their part. Because his undergraduate work was done at a university that was not regionally accredited, he did not qualify, EVEN THOUGH he was finishing his master’s at an accredited university. In spite of all the phone calls from both universities and conversations with professors, they would not budge, and my hope was not only deferred, it was dashed to the ground! My heart continues to cry, “THAT’S NOT FAIR!!!”
You see, that audition would have opened the possibility that my newest grandson (oh yes, and his parents :)) would only be an hour and a half from here instead of eleven hours. I didn’t realize how much I had already placed them there until the crash came!
Well, what do you do? For me, I wrestled it to the Lord and submitted to the fact that they would be in Wisconsin, near my daughter-by-choice’s family. That was good. I was happy for them. It could work out. However, that was not to be either! Lord, what are you doing?????
So, second wrestling came into place. God wants them to stay in South Carolina.
Now we move to our other son, who lives twenty minutes from us—the one who is interviewing in SOUTH DAKOTA!!! What is this, Lord? Who moves to South Dakota? What’s there that isn’t here?
It seems as though the Lord has really been putting us through the paces. I suppose the situation surrounding the writing of “The Darkest Day of My Life.” is far enough in the past to now mention it. Back in November, our nightmare started when I was accused of child abuse while subbing in our public elementary school. Then the family also filed a harassment charge. That all hung over our heads throughout the holidays, but, praise the Lord, the abuse case was concluded as “unfounded” and the harassment, “not guilty.” However, I’m still not back to work, waiting on a decision from the school district. It seems as though the saying, “Innocent until proven guilty” is really the opposite: guilty until proven innocent, and then we’re still not sure. Hopefully, they will soon consider me an asset and not a liability.
Woe is me! Hope deferred. And what do we do when “the desire” never comes? We pray, but God doesn’t see fit to answer our prayers according to OUR plan. Why does He do that?
This is what I’ve found:
God is ALWAYS good,
God is ALWAYS right,
God ALWAYS does what is BEST for me.
Here’s an illustration that may help us to see the situation more clearly: We hear a crash. We see a column of smoke several miles away. We look as hard as we can, but we can’t see what has happened! But, the man in the helicopter who flies overhead knows exactly what is there. He sees very clearly, not only the column of smoke, but he sees the crash. He sees the path of wreckage, possibly even the cause of the accident. He can even see survivors!
Our view of life is so limited, but we serve a God who sees the whole picture. He knows the beginning and the end and every step in between. He even sees my heart and knows the idols that are there. He is the Great Physician-Surgeon who can take the scalpel of His plan and carve it into my will. It may hurt A LOT, but I CAN trust in Him! AND I will choose to trust in Him. Please know that there is no other way for you to live closely by His side and have peace in your heart, joy in your step, and strength to walk the path when it’s strewn with disappointments and heartaches. Our God is GOOD!!!!
Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoiceth: my flesh also shall rest (dwell confidently) in hope (Psalm 16:9).
Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the LORD (Psalm 31:24).
And they said, There is no hope: but we will walk after our own devices, and we will every one do the imagination of his evil heart (Jeremiah 18:12). YIKES!!! Lord, help me not to do this!
This I recall (make to return to my heart) to my mind, therefore have I hope (Lamentations 3:21).
Therefore did my heart rejoice, and my tongue was glad; moreover also my flesh shall rest in hope: Acts 2:26 Look at the verses surrounding this verse. They are part of Peter’s Pentecostal sermon:
For David speaketh concerning him, I foresaw the Lord always before my face, for he is on my right hand, that I should not be moved: Therefore did my heart rejoice, and my tongue was glad; moreover also my flesh shall rest in hope: Because thou wilt not leave my soul in hell, neither wilt thou suffer thine Holy One to see corruption. Thou hast made known to me the ways of life; thou shalt make me full of joy with thy countenance (Acts 2:25-28).